I have done many, many years of study, but it's only now that I'm learning to enjoy learning. I've been working with Carol Sanford's Regenerative Thinking principles etc 1, then 2. Whilst its a fundamental shift, I am noticing immediate remediations, including the birth of this web-site journal. For me right now, it's all about dropping into a state where I know so little, I can't immediately produce a product, and slowing down and enjoying the process of change, rather than having an end goal. All there is is a highest principle, of quality of life, which for me is about learning and living together with all other beings. My early experiences were lucky, in the sense that they enabled me through abuse, neglect and trauma, to never fully engage with a system that privileged academia over living, and knowledge over relationships.